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He was drunk

he gets religious when heโ€™s drunk. heโ€™d say i would go to hell one day, and god would punish me. did you know i used to pray every night? he used to scream, louder than i knew how to, probably louder than i could back then, dyke and bitch and whore and words i donโ€™t want to say. did you know i used to pray every night? a man told me he loved me and i let him kiss me and i let him touch me and i thought the stars i saw were from love and not his hand around my throat and some part of me blames you for my own blindness. did you know i used to pray every night? a boy told me iโ€™d be happier if i was smaller and i believed him and i shrunk myself to nothing and i wasnโ€™t happy but i wasnโ€™t sad either and i havenโ€™t stopped trying. did you know i used to pray every night? i used to keep pills in my jewelry box and i didnโ€™t want to use them but i was too scared to throw them away. did you know i used to pray every night? you wondered where the liquor went and you never looked at me but if you had i wouldnโ€™t have been able to meet your eyes i think and those were the only nights i slept for a year because iโ€™d battle nightmares with coffee until my body didnโ€™t know what i was doing. did you know i used to pray every night? i wasnโ€™t raised with a god, iโ€™ve never been to a church, but i stole our bible when i was nine before i knew enough latin to understand it and you used to make stained glass and maybe that was enough. did you know i used to pray every night? he locked me outside one night, and i barely dodged his fist, and he fell asleep on the floor because he couldnโ€™t make it to the couch and do you know where god was? oh mama, did you know i used to pray every night? did you know when i stopped?

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