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“THE TIME TO NOT PREPARE!” 12/2/18 (Sunday)

NOW is the time; (it) ALWAYS HAS BEEN;

You can’t lose – ‘cause you’ve GOT the win;

Just that you’re HERE, means you’re VICTORIOUS;

Prepare The Way! Make it SO glorious – – –

Make it simple, to banish despair;

IF YOU WANT TO COME, you haven’t a care,

For-that-very-desire – is YOUR TICKET, My Friend!

GOD BLESS THE “FRETTERS!” (Do-you comprehend?)

I love you more – than ever you’ll know.

Now, F. S. – are you ready to go?

But – that’s just it – YOU’RE ALREADY THERE!

JUST STAY WHERE YOU ARE! Isn’t that fair?!

fin ❤


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Broken Soul 💥

Age 41 – Robin calls – Re-marriage possible
(Rush right in, but scary, but relieved
can be in “normal” society again)
Age 41 – Teeth Redone
Age 41 – Midland – Collapse Imminent – MUST
Find Job or else –
Age 41 – Dental Appts – Dental Fear F
Trapped w/Poisoned Fillings

Age 42 – LAW CASE: Woman: Welfare to JAIL

Age 43 – To Montana – GRAMA: GUITAR

Age 45 – Encounter group – Sterling Group (like EST)
Freaked out – collapsed – ASSHOLES – Fear
for Omitama Safety

Age 46 – 9/11 Sexual Assault Case?

Age 47 – Must leave Midland fear

Age 48 – Austin – Lots of Sex – Trying to balance Fear
Life w/giving okiyome
Age 48 – Classroom Phone Call
Age 48 – ROBIN v. MAHIKARI (She’s bad.)
Age 48 – Drugs from Steve
Age 48 – Bi-polar symptoms
(Barking Dog)

Age 49 – Austin – You’re Depressed – Wellbutrin
DALLAS – – – Alpine
Age 49 – CRANE: You’re bi-polar Anti-Ds & Thyroid meds
Sungazing – Desperate (escape drugs) (Sluggish)

Age 50 – Montana Trip – Rib Hurt
Age 50 – One Client – Psychiatric –
(in Judge’s Chambers) Guilt (10)
Age 50 – Monty Dies – Divorced – Root Canal S – A – F – H (10)
imminent (time to crash)
Age 50 – 2nd Divorce – touched!
Age 50 – August – stopped going to UU Church S (10)
Age 50 – Stopped music group – UU Church S – A – F – H (5)
Age 50 – 52 – “House Arrest”

Age 51 – Mouth infected – Fear of Poison
for Rest of Life

Age 53 – Dental Redo – Big Spring – Bleed ALL Night – Told DAD I was dying
after: Stanley – sATANLEY
Mental Hospital

Age 54 – Throw into WORK, CHOIRS, “Life(?)”

“Diary of a Madman” beginnings, this is, as best I can recall, how the journal starts: Now this is a new beinging. Sweet as 😁😁😁😁

Congratulations my Dear Freind for surviving those dark times of terror. The strength you found in the depth of anguish😔 isolation were harrowing. A journey faced by many poor Broken Souls that are unable to survive the darkest only seen in the depths beyond grief never to be back. This story uniquely defies the odds with deep outstanding of self. So proud to be a part of this journey back to the living a joyest life with loved ones. On and upwards we run hand in hand to the highest Peace 🕊🕊


Go in the direction of your greatest happiness. (This is referencing the EFT Tapping procedure I was experimenting with at the time!) (1) AIM AT THE TRANCE; (2) TAP IT OUT TO WHERE THE MEMORY (ROOT) CHANGES. (This is a basic suggested sequence!) YOU ARE – THEY ARE . . . YOU LOVE ______ . . . YOU’RE JUST LIKE ______ . . . THEY’RE HERE NOW . . . GIVE WORST SCENARIO . . . PLAY “IT” OUT . . . SAY WHAT HAD BEEN SAID TO THEM . . . SAY/FEEL THE WORST . . . SAY WHAT THEY THINK THE WORLD’S SAYING ABOUT THEM (HOW DO YOU KNOW?) (CAN YOU MAKE IT COME BACK?) IF YOU STILL HAVE EMOTIONS, KEEP TAPPIN’ UNTIL YOU HAVE PEACE


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Texas Cowboy

“THE MAN WHO LOOKED FOR BETTER THAN GOOD ENOUGH!” a poem a.k.a.: “If Everyone IS REAL Crazy, BUT You Don’t Care For Being Alone, You Better Get Crazy Too! Because Crazy Sometimes Beats Lonesome!” November 16, 2018 – Friday!

“I’m restless!” “I don’t know what to think!” “I FEEL alone!”

Said Mojo Jones (pause) who “had a bone,

To pick,” with-all-his-neighbor-folk!


When Jones would ask – WHY his neighbors believed THAT:

“Well, ‘twas good enough for Grampa,” said Ronnie McBlatt;

“It-was good ‘nough for pappy,” Sam Wallopee said “on the spot!

“Good enough for GOVERNMENT WORK,” said Willow, smokin’ pot;

“‘Twas good enough for 7 generations of us!”

Said Twila Florencio, and that girl could cuss!

But Mojo Jones – didn’t-want “good enough;”

He wanted BETTER! MUCH better! and Mojo was tough!

Jones searched for “better,” but not in a mosque or a shrine,

And he “poo-pooed” The Catholics – and – Saint Valentine!

Plus! Native American AND New Age – weren’t his “cup o’ tea!”

“The Galactic Commander(s) – can-come argue with me!!”

Said Mojo Jones – so he went off alone,

To some deserted island – and he picked clean his bone!

CLEAN! and he had no one to be around,

And he got REAL LONESOME, and he kissed The Ground!

He-came-back-to-our-town – with a new point of view:


fin ❤

Diary of a Mad Man 🕴🕴🕴🕴🕴

Page 70 – a list from DIARY OF A MADMAN, a.k.a.: “The Contented Heart!”

AGE 10 on Church Forced to Go – ACT OUT Help (10)
AGE 12 Cello – MUST DO IT
AGE 13 Shame – CURSED MAN – “Fuck You”
AGE 14 Cello – Forced to Perform (HELENA)
AGE 13 Basketball – knee H
AGE 13 Pool Near Drowning (Elkhorn)
AGE 13 Football TRAUMA – Schuler
AGE 13 BULLIES: in Dillon F
AGE 13 Wrestling Display Shame
AGE 13 DAD Shouts AT Truck Driver F

AGE 14 Methodist Summer Camp – Discrim. A

AGE 13 Hawaiian Trip – Trauma to prepare A-S-H-F (10)
AGE 17 Football Coach – Letter Jacket A-S-H-F ( )
AGE 14 on Debating – Overwhelmed – Loss-Win Shame
AGE 13 Bee Sting – Cello Recital
AGE 13 CAUGHT Stealing – “
AGE 13 Jealousy re: Sister – Teasing Her [She tolerates me] A
AGE 17 West Point Begins – Crying at FLAG Betrayed Self (10)
AGE 18 Called WUSS
AGE 18 Eccentric – Must Conform
AGE 19 KNEE hurt – operation
AGE 18 Poked in throat
AGE 20 LEFT – can’t handle it – FAILURE A-S-F
AGE 21 Boxing: Smoker – Failure- Knocked Out Shame
AGE 21 Beloved CAT – Beloved DOG – deaths H-A (S) (10)
AGE 20 – 23 (School Pressure – General Cello Etc)
AGE 20 1st encounter – Sexual W/WOMAN
AGE 22 – TRACK TRIP – Gena, pregnant Shock ( )
AGE 25 Law School
AGE 27 Graduate – Lost
Law School
AGE 28 D A – – – forced back to teaching H-A-S-F (10)
AGE 30 Stop Teaching – Failure – “Home”
AGE 30 Stop Being a Jew S-A-H-F (10)
AGE 32 6
AGE 32

Texas Cowboy

“OUR NUT HOUSE!” a poem November 10, 2018 – Saturday!

God bless this Nut House, and the-Chief-Nut’s me;

God bless this Nut House – and our dis har – mony!

God bless this Nut House – It’s filled with fun and hugs;

God bless this Nut House: What a bunch (pause) o’-THUGS!

No place I’d rather be; no place I would prefer,

Hanging at The Nut House, me and Raymond Burr,*

Trump AND Bill – and Pelosi** too! It’s a bloody menage-a-trois:

Whooping-it-up at The-White-House – (pause) – Ha! – Ha! – Ha!

Will Smith and Kermit*** – are s – – – – in’ in the loft;

I never knew that they were gay! My gosh, my Lover’s soft!

Her legs are wide, and I’m inside, and

Poof! I disappear,

And, suddenly, I’m at The Blues,**** sipping on a beer,

And singing karaoke! And-shuffle-board-at-Ole;*****

I’m independently wealthy (?) – so I guess they’ll make me pay,

For the other nuts – and berries, for Yogi Bear****** must feed!

Boo Boo Bear****** is happy, and Fozzie’s******in the lead,

And Darren Hayes and Darrell Hannah – are DARing-to-be-on-the-couch!

Wait a “sec;” I’m SURE he’s******* gay! I’m STRUCK, and I go: “Ouch!”

My lover gal’s behind me: “Stop oogling at Darrell’s chest;

I need you NOW! A special mantra – will bring out all the best!”

And Vance and Brian are chairing – The A. A. Group – to Hell,

For Jesus Christ is waiting there, and Satan will NOT tell,

That his nickname’s “Giggles;” his cabin’s on The Hill,

And Eve-&-Ellen have coffee brewing! “Behave, you guys!” until,

The WHOLE PLACE’s misbehaving – and my folks are getting wild!

My little sister – and her beau – are-singing: “Mercy mild!”

Bless this Nut House, with Facebook too: that computer-generated ruse,

‘Cause, when-you-be-stuck-in-The-Nut-House, Honey – Destiny can not lose,

And Hailey’s Comet – is coming – in just about a minute!

Plus, Nancy-&-Judith-&-and-Fawn are here, and Corey’s REALLY in-it,

And when-Jasmine-&-Reggie-meet-Ruben-&-Javi[er] sparks are gonna fly!

Crystal’s a gale – and-I-have-no-pail – to-gather-nuts-but I’l try! 🙂 – Whew!

fin ❤

    • actor, famous for playing tough guys, like TV defense lawyer Perry Mason!

** – Nancy Pelosi, net worth: $25 – $30 million!

*** – actor, famous for playing a tough frog, travelling as a minstrel, in search of love with a pig!

**** – The Railroad Blues, a nightclub in Alpine, Texas, U. S. A.

***** – Ole Crystal Bar, a nightclub also in Alpine!

****** – famous cartoon/animated/puppet bears!

******* – previously the lead singer for the rock group “Savage Garden!”

Mystic Cowboy

“IN THE SWEET BY AND BY!” a poem in the series: “Narcissism and Other Apparently Extraordinary Conditions!” Sunday: November 11, 2018

I used to be a GOOD boy; I shared in-everyone’s opinion;

I loved to-be called – and labeled often! Something like-a-”minion!”

I’d go along and sing a song, whichever one-THEY-did-like

Something-that’s-GOOD, and PURE-&-TRIED,

BUT, since-I’m-so-bad, how-can I decide,

What’s good or bad or green or red,

I’m so confused, in my “little head!”

IF I could-just-avoid all-the-DSMs,

I would be GOOD! Could-I-use-some-“chems” –

To smooth me out and get me right?

Clear! Straight! Neither loose-or-tight?

“You-gotta-be-well-balanced, in The Public Eye!”

Then! [I’ll] be GOOD-AGAIN! In-the-Sweet – By-and-By! 🙂

fin ❤