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Tumblr’s porn ban could devastate many who make a living as cam models Sex workers of all stripes found Tumblr to be a boon to finding clients. What happens when that income is cut off? ( Read the full article)

Tumblr’s porn ban could devastate many who make a living as cam models
Sex workers of all stripes found Tumblr to be a boon to finding clients. What happens when that income is cut off?

DECEMBER 5, 2018 12:00AM (UTC)
On Monday, Tumblr announced it will ban all sexualized nudity from its platform, bringing an end to its era of serving as a freeform, accessible hub for diverse sexual expression. While the ban is meant to make the platform “better [and] more positive,” it will also likely to send shockwaves through an industry of cam models who have depended on the platform to make an income — and in some cases, survive.

Tumblr said in its official announcement the ban will go into effect on December 17. Most adult content via photos, videos, or GIFs, will be prohibited or removed by then, with the exception of “female-presenting nipples in connection with breastfeeding, birth or after-birth moments, and health-related situations, such as post-mastectomy or gender confirmation surgery.” Thus, the days of Tumblr porn are nearing an end.

“There are no shortage of sites on the internet that feature adult content,” chief executive Jeff D’Onofrio wrote in a blog post Monday. “We will leave it to them and focus our efforts on creating the most welcoming environment possible for our community.”

The ban may be a repercussion of Tumblr being removed from Apple’s App Store after child pornography was found on the site, a negative side effect intrinsic to many unmoderated user-dependent platforms.

Regardless, people who make a living “camming” — meaning that clients pay to watch a livestream of, or have an individual video chat with, a cam model — will lose a vital platform. As Karley Sciortino wrote in Broadly, camming has become a huge part of the adult entertainment industry, and many sex workers make a living as freelancers who cam or sell videos via sites like Tumblr or Snapchat.

In spite of stereotypes about the kind of people attracted to sex work, people from many different socioeconomic classes make a living camming part-time or full-time. Anna Katzen, a Harvard grad, wrote about her experience working as a cam girl in a 2014 Salon essay:

“Why did you start camming?” asked someone with the username TiredForearm. “Well, I came here because I hate my real job and wanted to see if this could be a viable financial alternative,” I said. […] I began leaving the office sharply at 5 p.m., applying my makeup on the subway ride home and often skipping dinner in order to log online faster. I broadcast my webcam show until 10 or 11 p.m., then rolled into bed exhausted, exhilarated and up to $600 richer. After only a week of moonlighting as a camgirl, earning twice the wages of my desk job in half of the time, I handed in my notice. “Freelance work,” I told my boss and parents alike. “I’m going to take the certification exam for Russian-to-English translation.” While not entirely ludicrous – I am fluent in Russian – I saw no hurry to pursue this option so long as I was still certified to flash my boobs over the Internet.

Aella, who was a cam girl for five years and earned $50,000 in her highest earning month, told Salon this ban is “sad” and will have an impact on cam models.

“I used to acquire more customers… it can be extremely effective as a marketing channel,” she told Salon. “I think it limits the options… it’s one option out of many [that] are slowly being cut back, as more platforms restrict nudity people have fewer platforms to fall back on — especially independent sex workers.”

Aella explained the process of acquiring new clients on Tumblr went as follows: “So say I’m a regular guy browsing Tumblr and a photo comes up of a really hot girl, she’s interesting, really attractive, conveying the thing I want to know more about,” she said. From there, the potential client can find more information about the cam model, and either tip them or pay for a private session.

“Tumblr [was] great” for that, she added. Today, Aella helps other women go through the process of camming, and advises them on her blog how to be successful at it.

Pike Long, the Deputy Director of St. James Infirmary — a peer-based occupational health clinic for sex workers and their families — told Salon in an email that the Tumblr porn ban will impact sex workers.

“I know sex workers who are going to be harmed by this, though we as an [organisation] haven’t given it much attention yet,” she told Salon in an email. “I do find it to be cruelly ironic that they chose December 17th, which happens to be International Day to End Violence Against Sex Workers, as their date to pull many workers off their platform.”

Editor: Disclaimer
This article is a reprint

We do not comment or Judge

But we do support victims of Pedophiles

We do support all Victims of the Sex Trade Industry.

The person or organisation who made this above interview may be fabricated. We at no time ratify this article

We do congratulate Apple Corporation pressing forward.

Violence towards Women in Slavery is not Ok

Dazzle 🕊


‘THE BITTER EVIDENCE?!” a poem. a.k.a.: “Happy Skies Behind The Clouds!” a.k.a.: “Bitter As Sweet; And Vice Versa!” Monday – 12/3/18

I’m burning all the evidence because there’s lots of fear,
I’m burning this-terrible evidence of what transpired HERE!
Because it might remind us of “bad” things that-happened-before,
We won’t go BACK-we’re “progressive,” so we’ll FORGET THE PAST,
We’ll even pop some pills, to cover-IT-up – We wanna have A BLAST!
We wanna demonize – those “bad people,” oh! so nast,*
Like EX’s and rude neighbors – and people who might have sassed,
Us! one too many times – too many, I think,
RIGHT-NOW – and ALL-THE-FUTURE – MUST (all) be in “the pink,”
So “rose-colored” glasses! They are REALLY THE THING,
So GOOD OL’ MEMORIES will greet us – only-they will ever spring,
Into our hearts – and minds – and being,
BAD REMINDERS!? Yuck! (Too) many I’m seeing!!
But! What if we take a different spin,
And let those PREVIOUSLY BAD MEMORIES come back in?
And – remember THE GOOD, which walked “hand-in-hand,”
With-what-we-THINK-should-be-burned! Can we understand?
That, if you destroy all the memories that “made you cry,”
You also lose something special: SOME HAPPY SKY,
And, if you hate those ones whom you used to hold,
You sell the past “short;” why not – BE BOLD,
YOU VERY MUCH! (Now, you count “them” “dung?”)
And propose to burn the dung away?
HOPING! Hoping? – for some “better” day?
When your cavalier attitude will NOT count the sum,
Of your life as WORTHWHILE! But only bits and pieces?
And THAT’S NO LIFE – for when your life ceases,
It is THE TOTAL, the “highs” and “lows,”
The happy – and hurtful – even haters and foes,
LOVE IT ALL: Even (The) Bitter – Flavor! 🙂 – Whoopee!

fin <3

* – NAST[Y] !


What is the relationship between the Vers and this picture post?

I wonder if you care to comment

What you see maybe not is what you may take in.

Written word remains in cyber and your mind for an eternity.

I often leave this quote on many posts on Social Media ” if you can’t say anything nice – don’t say anything at all”

Thought for today 🕊🕊

Shane Anderton cried as he was sentenced for raping a 15 year old girl, he got just 5 years because, amongst other reasons, he has a young family and leaving them would make prison difficult.

Shane Anderton cried as he was sentenced for raping a 15 year old girl, he got just 5 years because, amongst other reasons, he has a young family and leaving them would make prison difficult.

Anderton met the young girl at a suburban Perth train station, she had been drinking and was just 15 years old. He told her he was 26 and gained her trust by telling her he could get her some cigarettes.

She then got on a bus and he followed, he sat near her but they didn’t speak to each other. They got off at the same stop and walked to his friend’s apartment where she was given alcohol and some cannabis.

She later walked away under the influence of the substances and Anderton followed, taking the girl by the wrist….. he saw his opportunity and walked her to the bush area where he raped her.

The father-of-four, who has two young children with his current partner, stood trial in the West Australian District Court charged with three offences, but the jury only convicted him of one count of aggravated sexual penetration without consent. (Why doesn’t our legal system just call this rape ? Seriously, why is our system minimizing rape in such an horrendous way ?)

Judge Laurie Levy said that it should have been obvious to Anderton that the girl was affected by drugs and alcohol.

He said the girl resisted both physically and verbally, and Anderton had been indifferent about the girl’s age, although he had not displayed any predatory behaviour????
No predatory behaviour????
Really, it sounds incredibly predatory to us.

Judge Levy said general deterrence and the vulnerability of the victim were significant sentencing factors. She was clearly resisting, she said no and tried to fight him off but Anderton didn’t even slightly care.

Please no victim blaming….
We have seen the comments made about this article elsewhere and we will not allow those kind of excuses to be made for a child rapist on FACAA.
We are aware the girl was drinking underage…. but, that is not an excuse for rape !
Being impaired by alcohol and/or drugs means you are incapable of giving consent,
Being underage means you cannot give consent !
End of story, nothing excuses this kind of behaviour.

Judge Levy went on to say, “You did opportunistically take advantage of a young and clearly vulnerable person.”

Anderton covered his face with his hands and wept during the court proceedings… despite the tears, Judge Levy said Anderton, who has a 9 page criminal record and a history of substance abuse, had not showed contrition or remorse.

He said it would be inappropriate to suspend the sentence despite Anderton’s lawyers arguing for a wholly suspended sentence. They argued that because Anderton had not offended again since this offence, he should get a suspended sentence, let’s not go into the fact he has a 9 page criminal history….shall we… His foolish lawyers also argued that he was reformed…

Ahhhh sorry to break this to you gents, but child rapists cannot be reformed or rehabilitated ….and what incentive is there for them to even attempt to change when they haven’t served a day behind bars…

At this point I would like to ask the lawyers who defend these predators, how they sleep at night knowing they are attempting to release self-confessed child rapists, back onto the streets, without so much as a night behind bars.
Well done guys, awesome life choices …. I only hope that your children/grandchildren are never attacked by one of these monsters because I would truly hate for you to find out what it is to have a loved one attacked by one of these monsters you chose to defend.

Anderton must serve at least three years behind bars before he becomes eligible for parole.
Judge Levy took into account the fact that Anderton had 4 children, including 2 young children to his latest partner, and leaving them would make serving time in prison difficult.

Yeah sorry, I don’t think so…. every criminal has a family somewhere, and no prison sentence is easy, that’s sort of the point of doing time, you don’t want to be away from family and friends… no prisoner wants to do it… so therefore it acts as a deterrent…..

That’s a free lesson to all Judges who choose to use these ridiculous excuses for leniency…. brought to you from the good people at FACAA. 😊

Judges.. you may choose to reference this next time you’re hearing a child rapist cry about how hard it will be to go to prison. Never thought I’d have to explain the concept of a deterrent to a judge…..

So, in just 3 short years Shane Anderton can be released from prison, in 33 years his victim will still be living with the memories and trauma of what “he” did to her.

Hardly seems like justice, does it?

#FACAA #ProudFACAA #ShaneAnderton #WA #WAPOL #WAPolice #Perth #ChildMolestation #ChildRapist # #WeWillFight #StandUp #NeverGonnaStop #SaveTheKids #EndingChildABuse #RaisingAwareness #ChangingLaws #HealingSurvivors #ChangingLives #GuardiansOfTheInnocent #VoiceForTheVoiceless #HOpeForTheHOpeless #ChildrensChampions #PhoenixProgram #TakeAStance #JuliasJustice #RealWork #Charity

Broken Soul 💥

Age 41 – Robin calls – Re-marriage possible
(Rush right in, but scary, but relieved
can be in “normal” society again)
Age 41 – Teeth Redone
Age 41 – Midland – Collapse Imminent – MUST
Find Job or else –
Age 41 – Dental Appts – Dental Fear F
Trapped w/Poisoned Fillings

Age 42 – LAW CASE: Woman: Welfare to JAIL

Age 43 – To Montana – GRAMA: GUITAR

Age 45 – Encounter group – Sterling Group (like EST)
Freaked out – collapsed – ASSHOLES – Fear
for Omitama Safety

Age 46 – 9/11 Sexual Assault Case?

Age 47 – Must leave Midland fear

Age 48 – Austin – Lots of Sex – Trying to balance Fear
Life w/giving okiyome
Age 48 – Classroom Phone Call
Age 48 – ROBIN v. MAHIKARI (She’s bad.)
Age 48 – Drugs from Steve
Age 48 – Bi-polar symptoms
(Barking Dog)

Age 49 – Austin – You’re Depressed – Wellbutrin
DALLAS – – – Alpine
Age 49 – CRANE: You’re bi-polar Anti-Ds & Thyroid meds
Sungazing – Desperate (escape drugs) (Sluggish)

Age 50 – Montana Trip – Rib Hurt
Age 50 – One Client – Psychiatric –
(in Judge’s Chambers) Guilt (10)
Age 50 – Monty Dies – Divorced – Root Canal S – A – F – H (10)
imminent (time to crash)
Age 50 – 2nd Divorce – touched!
Age 50 – August – stopped going to UU Church S (10)
Age 50 – Stopped music group – UU Church S – A – F – H (5)
Age 50 – 52 – “House Arrest”

Age 51 – Mouth infected – Fear of Poison
for Rest of Life

Age 53 – Dental Redo – Big Spring – Bleed ALL Night – Told DAD I was dying
after: Stanley – sATANLEY
Mental Hospital

Age 54 – Throw into WORK, CHOIRS, “Life(?)”

FaCS worker Lennard Downes has admitted threatening to break the neck of a non-verbal autistic boy in his “care,” but has denied assaulting him.

FaCS worker Lennard Downes has admitted threatening to break the neck of a non-verbal autistic boy in his “care,” but has denied assaulting him.

A magistrate is considering the fate of an Illawarra FaCs carer accused of assaulting a mute autistic boy, after the child’s parents took the extraordinary step of planting a recording device in their son’s bag in a bid to explain his bruises.

This is an absolutely abhorrent act by the carer, threatening to break the neck of a little boy who has no ability to speak for himself, who cannot tell anyone what is happening to him and in a stereotypical cowardly move Downes has blamed literally everyone but himself !

In distressing audio recordings played to Wollongong Local Court last Wednesday, Lennard Michael Downes is heard calling the boy a “f—ing c—t” and threatening to hit him if he doesn’t eat.

Elsewhere in the recordings, Downes is heard telling the boy to “swallow what’s in your mouth or I’ll break your neck” and warning, “don’t f—ing cry or I’ll give you something to cry about”.

This is just appalling behaviour from someone who is supposed to be caring for children in place of the parents, giving them respite, a break from what can be extremely challenging at times. it’s no wonder parents in these situations wear themselves out physically and emotionally rather than risk their precious children with strangers.

Downes has made pathetic excuses for his behaviour including “I was tired, I don’t know what I was suggesting, I was at my wit’s end,” he said. He told the court he had had only five hours’ sleep in between shifts spent caring for the boy, and had come to work on the second day only because FaCS “had absolutely no one else to do it”.

So it’s FaCS’ fault for being understaffed, right ?
Being tired is not an excuse for abusing a child, we wouldn’t accept it as an excuse from parents so why the hell would we except it from a carer?

He said he had “a lot of other things going on in my personal life” at the time, and should not have been at work.
So why were you there? If you are unfit for work, you are unfit for work. Fullstop.

Don’t choose to go to work, especially when your job is to be responsible for another vulnerable persons life and then use it as an excuse for abusive behaviour…. no way is that ok!

So many excuses none of them give any validation to, or justification for, threatening to break the neck of this child. He plays the whole “ none of this is an excuse… but….” card as well. This isn’t him admitting what he did was wrong, this is him saying that he is going to try every excuse under the sun in the hope the magistrate will let him walk free and keep his job.

The fact is parents look after their children day in and day out, month after month, year after year and if they find themselves needing help at any point in their child’s life, they should know 100% that their child will be professionally cared for, nurtured, shown compassion and love just as they would receive at their own home with their parents. What is the point of respite if the parents are constantly worried that their child is being bullied, threatened, physically, emotionally or even in some cases sexually abused.

I have experience helping to care for a non-verbal 6 year old girl, she is also on the autistic spectrum and is considered to be low functioning, and she is one of the most precious things in my life.

It is a privilege being trusted to care for her and the thought of someone hurting her makes me violent.

She is so innocent and so totally vulnerable to jerks like
this scumbag. I am glad I will never meet Mr Downes face to face…..

I know children, especially low functioning non-verbal children on the autism spectrum, can be frustrating at times. Ms 6 yr old makes a noise like a siren, we call it her “all’s well siren” she does it all day, when she is happy. Yes it is loud, ear piercing, and I don’t know how her parents cope so well, but they do, because they have to… they know too much of what happens to trust their precious girl with anyone but us.

We are not denying it’s exhausting but if you are getting angry, remove yourself, do not inflict your anger and violence on such an innocent beautiful gift from the gods. Anyone who can even think about threatening to break the neck of any child let alone a non verbal autistic child makes me physically ill. What a pathetic coward ! You aren’t sorry you putz ! You are just sad you got caught ! You only did this because the child is non-verbal and you thought there was no way you could be caught out !

I haven’t even gone into the allegations of you assaulting the child and I won’t comment on those because the fact is the magistrate has not handed down her judgement on that topic yet, so I will refrain until she does.

To me it’s bad enough that he verbally threatened the boy, imagine being this boy at a care facility on respite, away from his loving family in the hands of this brutish stranger and he is screaming at him, you can’t speak to defend yourself or tell someone what he is doing to you but everytime you go there, this pathetic coward berates you, he screams at you, he threatens to kill you and the whole time you can’t do a damn thing, you can’t tell anyone you can’t let anyone know but you know everytime you go there, this vile thing is there and he will make you scared.

That’s what you did Lennard Downes, you scared an innocent child over and over again until eventually his awesome parents planted a recording device… and suddenly you’re remorseful ? RUBBISH ! You are only sad you got caught and the whole world now knows what a pathetic coward you really are, berating and threatening to kill an innocent child, big man you must be !

To add absolute insult to injury (although I guess we shouldn’t be at all surprised this happened) but his fellow FaCS worker stood up for Mr Downes, they even testified on his behalf.
A co-worker who cared for the boy in the hours between Downes’ shifts described the child “jumping, screaming, running into the kitchen into the cutlery drawer”. She told police that the boy was still awake at 2.30am – “screaming, tapping, trying to get out” and was at times “lying in bed, hitting himself in his face with his hand” and that by shift’s end she was “ a little bit at her wit’s end”.

So being at your wits end did you threaten to kill the child ? Did you scream in his face ? Did you tell him to “Stop crying or I’ll give you something to cry about” … god damn I’d like to give Mr Downes something to cry about….. Seriously to his female co-worker who backed him up are you saying that you understand what he did ? IF YOU ARE, THEN YOU TOO DESERVE TO LOSE YOUR JOB AND NEVER AGAIN BE ALLOWED NEAR CHILDREN ESPECIALLY SPECIAL NEEDS CHILDREN. How dare you stick up for this abhorrent coward and try and justify what this child has endured at his hands. HAND IN YOUR RESIGNATION NOW YOU ARE NOT FIT TO BE A FaCS WORKER !

Downes later told police the boy “had some kind of bruising on him” every time he saw him. Isn’t that convenient because the boy can’t say otherwise so he can’t possibly disagree … so why not blame his family or blame his autism when the fact is he is more than likely left in a state of PTSD by the cowardly moron berating him and threatening to break his neck ! Or worse being told to “stop crying or I’ll give you something to cry about !” Seriously that one has left me absolutely burning how dare you !

He admitted he lied to police when he initially denied verbally abusing the boy, due to “fear about what [the truth] might say about me as a person”

There it is folks, exactly what he cares about. Doesn’t care about the severe impact he has undoubtedly had on the innocent young boy, doesn’t care about the fact that young boy will never be the same because of the verbal berating and death threats he has received at the hands of a so called man who is supposed to be his carer !

No he doesn’t care about any of that, he cares about how his pathetic cowardly actions will make him look to others.


I hope you never again work with children, I hope when magistrate Susan McGowan hands down her decision on the 31st of January it is a decision to send you behind bars for a very long time.

Autistic children are gifts from the gods, anyone who can possibly hurt them or any child for that matter when they are meant to be carers should be locked up for a very long time.

This is why we need cameras in all facilities where children are cared for, especially those who cannot communicate. Our children deserve so much better.

#FACAA #ProudFACAA #LennardDownes #FaCS #FamilyAndCommunityServices #NSW #NSWPOL #NSWPolice #HiddenCamera #Autism #AutismAbuse #NonVerbal #CantDefendHimself #PatheticCoward #WeWillFight #StandUp #NEverGonnaStop #SaveTheKids #EndingChildABuse #RaisingAwareness #ChangingLaws #HealingSurvivors #ChangingLives #GuardiansOfTheInnocent #VoiceForTheVoiceless #HOpeForTheHOpeless #ChildrensChampions #TakeAStance #PhoenixProgram #JuliasJustice

Diary of a Mad Man 🕴🕴🕴🕴🕴

Page 70 – a list from DIARY OF A MADMAN, a.k.a.: “The Contented Heart!”

AGE 10 on Church Forced to Go – ACT OUT Help (10)
AGE 12 Cello – MUST DO IT
AGE 13 Shame – CURSED MAN – “Fuck You”
AGE 14 Cello – Forced to Perform (HELENA)
AGE 13 Basketball – knee H
AGE 13 Pool Near Drowning (Elkhorn)
AGE 13 Football TRAUMA – Schuler
AGE 13 BULLIES: in Dillon F
AGE 13 Wrestling Display Shame
AGE 13 DAD Shouts AT Truck Driver F

AGE 14 Methodist Summer Camp – Discrim. A

AGE 13 Hawaiian Trip – Trauma to prepare A-S-H-F (10)
AGE 17 Football Coach – Letter Jacket A-S-H-F ( )
AGE 14 on Debating – Overwhelmed – Loss-Win Shame
AGE 13 Bee Sting – Cello Recital
AGE 13 CAUGHT Stealing – “
AGE 13 Jealousy re: Sister – Teasing Her [She tolerates me] A
AGE 17 West Point Begins – Crying at FLAG Betrayed Self (10)
AGE 18 Called WUSS
AGE 18 Eccentric – Must Conform
AGE 19 KNEE hurt – operation
AGE 18 Poked in throat
AGE 20 LEFT – can’t handle it – FAILURE A-S-F
AGE 21 Boxing: Smoker – Failure- Knocked Out Shame
AGE 21 Beloved CAT – Beloved DOG – deaths H-A (S) (10)
AGE 20 – 23 (School Pressure – General Cello Etc)
AGE 20 1st encounter – Sexual W/WOMAN
AGE 22 – TRACK TRIP – Gena, pregnant Shock ( )
AGE 25 Law School
AGE 27 Graduate – Lost
Law School
AGE 28 D A – – – forced back to teaching H-A-S-F (10)
AGE 30 Stop Teaching – Failure – “Home”
AGE 30 Stop Being a Jew S-A-H-F (10)
AGE 32 6
AGE 32

When Jane was 15 she was repeatedly sexually assaulted by her math teacher Nicolaas Bester, now he is playing the victim and she can’t speak in her own defence

When Jane was 15 she was repeatedly sexually assaulted by her math teacher Nicolaas Bester, now he is playing the victim and she can’t speak in her own defence #LetHerSpeak

Former private school teacher and convicted sex offender Bester, who groomed, molested and repeatedly sexually assaulted his student, has arrogantly claimed he is the real victim.

In 2011, Nicolaas Ockert Bester, was sentenced to two years and four months in jail for maintaining a sexual relationship with his 15-year-old maths student at Hobart’s prestigious St Michael’s Collegiate.

**Maintaining a sexual relationship, interesting terminology, isn’t it…. on this page, that is called rape… children cannot give consent, therefore no consent=rape.

In 2015, after being released from prison, Bester, the then 58-year-old, reoffended by making child exploitation material for which he was sentenced to an additional four months in jail. That same year, he wrote comments on social media about his “sexual relationship” with the teenage student, describing it as “awesome” and “enviable” — for another four months in jail.

But despite all this, Bester has arrogantly claimed he is the real victim, and the worst part is he is getting support. Sex therapist Bettina Arndt interviewed him for her website and let him prattle on about how hard done by he is ! She even asked him what HE had been through! She literally gave HIM, a convicted child sex offender, a voice and in the introduction to the video referred to Bester as a “so called child abuser” THERE’S NOTHING “SO CALLED” ABOUT IT BETTINA, HE WAS TRIED AND CONVICTED…. HE IS A CHILD SEX OFFENDER, DEFINITELY A CHILD ABUSER… END OF STORY !

If his social media commentary and Bettina Arndt excusing his behaviour wasn’t bad enough, Jane Doe (in case you haven’t guessed, that isn’t her real name) isn’t even allowed to speak up and defend herself !

Because of an antiquated and outdated Tasmanian law that prevents survivors of sexual assault from being named, she cannot tell her story in any way, shape or form. He, her abuser… can, but she can’t, this is just incredibly wrong !

The outdated law which only exists in Tasmania and the Northern Territory won’t allow sexual assault survivors to be identified under their real name, even with their full consent….. you heard that correctly, even if they are now adults and wish to speak out… they cannot!
Who is really being protected by this law? Certainly not survivors who wish to tell their story.

Bester groomed Jane Doe, he was her teacher, 40+ years older than her, in a position where he held all of the power. She was a vulnerable teenage girl, troubled and suffering from anorexia.
He took advantage of her mentally, physically, emotionally and in a situation where he held all the power, he now claims he is the real victim.

Until now, Bester has been able to speak, knowing “Jane Doe” has no power or legal right to defend herself.

In Tasmania, Section 194K of the Evidence Act means that the identity of a sexual assault survivor can never be revealed, even with the sexual assault survivor’s full cooperation and consent. It’s a cruel and barbaric law that effectively silences courageous survivors and protects their perpetrators.

Bester sexually abused “Jane Doe” at school, in his office, in a hotel room and even in a church and now after being convicted and serving prison time, he is telling a very different version of the “truth” and thanks to people like Bettina Arndt, giving his ridiculous version creedence, where he is infact the victim, he is being heard. Last night 60 minutes aired this story and even when reporter Allison Langdon, confronted the now 65-year-old Bester, the first time he’s ever been challenged on his version of events, he made no apologies for his behaviour.

“The truth of it is, you isolated and groomed a vulnerable young girl,” Langdon said as she confronted him outside a hardware store in Tasmania.

“No. Nothing of the kind,” he adamantly responded.

“You locked her in a closet.”

“Nothing of the kind,” he repeated
“.. and forced her to undress,” Langdon interrupted

When Langdon said: “All you’ve done is portray yourself as the victim. What about the real victim, Nicholas? Any thoughts to her?”

Bester hit back saying, “There’s that word again, victim. We’ll see who’s the victim.”

You see… Bester is the perfect example of a child abuser, he is arrogant, a narcissist concerned only with HIS wants, HIS feelings, how things affects HIM. He is the victim here, he lost his job, his family, his life, he went to prison…of course the fact that he is to blame for those things happening to him is something he will never accept. He truly believes he is the victim and that is why we at FACAA say they can never be rehabilitated… because the fact is they see themselves as the victim, they truly believe the world has done them wrong by arresting them and calling them a child abuser. If you refuse to admit your crime how can you ever be rehabilitated especially when you are deluded enough to believe that sexually abusing, raping a child 40+ years younger than you, when you hold all the power, is the childs fault. Unbelievable!

To say they are rehabilitated or that they are the victim is simply an outright lie. Yet still here we are, with the only real victim in this story still having no voice, she cannot speak out without risking imprisonment, yet Bester can go and be interviewed by those who excuse and explain away his paedophillic ways, and he can cry foul of the whole world, claim it was he who was hard done by, there is no justice !

We have to commend 60 minutes for their work in this story, as well as Camilla Cleese, Alyssa Milano and Tara Moss for championing “Jane Doe’s” cause and to End Rape On Campus for starting the Hashtag #LetHerSpeak to raise awareness for changing the outdated and antiquated law in Tasmania and the Northern Territory.

To “Jane Doe” we say please never stop fighting and know all 117 thousand of the FACAA stand right behind you. You deserve to be able to defend yourself and to speak out about what was done to you… no one should be able to take your voice. Our voices are the best defence we, as survivors, have against predators.
Together, we will be heard

To Nicolaas Bester we say SHUT THE HELL UP ! YOU HAVE DONE ENOUGH DAMAGE. Bester you ARE a child abuser and you are NOT the victim and Bettina why on earth would you give a CONVICTED child abuser a voice? How do you sleep at night, both of you ?

If you would like to see this antiquated law changed, please sign and share the petition below and #LetHerSpeak-

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Narcissistic personality disorder this monster self gratification ejaculation. Next time this monster will say she wanted to be murdered.

Cornelus Bezuidenhout molested a 6 year old girl then told the court “she knew exactly what she was doing and wanted it” He will be deported after serving just 7 months !

This absolutely vile pervert tried to blame his 6 year old victim for him molesting her !

Once again a child abuser proves beyond a shadow of a doubt that they cannot be rehabilitated because they simply do not acknowledge that they have done anything wrong !

A pervert who sexually assaulted a kindergarten student claimed she ‘knew exactly what she was doing’ and ‘wanted it’. Cornelus Bezuidenhout, 75, who claimed to be a ‘good Christian’, made the vile comments to police last January after the girl pleaded with her parents to keep him away.

That’s not very Christian of you Cornelus, not only did you molest one of god’s chosen (the children) and forever traumatize the little innocent angel, but then instead of owning your mistake and asking forgiveness you tried to pass the buck to the 6 YEAR OLD GIRL !
I doubt very highly that Jesus would be behind you on this one !

The South African national – a father of five – who now lives in Melbourne, had been looking after the girl after befriending the parents of his niece’s friend. He had repeatedly molested the child after collecting her from kindergarten, taking her on trips to the park and playing dolls in a bedroom. On one occasion he touched the little girl while he shared a meal with her parents.

The brazen sex offender was caught after his terrified victim pleaded with her parents not to let him come around to their house. ‘He’s not as nice as he seems,’ she warned, telling her shocked parents Bezuidenhout had ‘touched her private parts’.

What an incredibly brave and articulate child, showing courage and wisdom beyond her years.

The child was forced to recount her ordeal to the court just days before Christmas last year, telling a judge her abuser had hurt her. The devout Baptist pleaded guilty to two charges of sexually assaulting a child aged under 16. He had initially denied abusing the girl, telling his wife of 26 years that nothing was wrong.

He continued his outrageous behaviour when questioned by police, telling them the little girl was trouble.

Bezuidenhout blamed his victim for her abuse, telling detectives ‘it was no accident’. ‘It was purely for her, as she wanted it,’ he said. ‘It was a game … she knew exactly what she was doing.’


Bezuidenhout said he abused the girl only to ‘please her’ and that he was a ‘good Christian’ who had been unable to maintain an erection for the past five years. What does that have to do with anything ? You don’t need an erection to be a child sex offender.

He actually had the gall to tell the police-
‘This little girl should know boundaries because she’ll get herself into trouble,’
Umm no Cornelus, it is YOU who should know boundaries and it is YOU who has gotten himself in trouble…. but it is nothing you don’t deserve !

He went on to muse that it was ‘unbelievable a five-year old seduces a 75-year old man’.
County Court of Victoria Judge Gabriele Cannon agreed. ‘The punishment must be just,’ she said.

Judge Cannon condemned Bezuidenhout for his ‘gross breach of trust’ and labelled his comments to police as ‘repugnant’.

‘You knew what you did was wrong … you blame the six-year old victim,’ she said. She sentenced the civil engineer to 22 months in jail, with a non-parole period of 10 months. With time served, Bezuidenhout will likely be deported back to South Africa in a little under seven months.

So Judge Cannon says “the punishment must be just” and then gives him what equates to 7 more months in prison ? Somehow that doesn’t sound very just to me.

Our judges comments suggest that they get the impact that child abuse has on our children, but then their actions speak much louder… when they hand them pathetically lenient sentences which equate to nothing more than a slap on the wrist. This gives the opposite message that our children’s lives are not valued by our society.

We simply must start punishing these vile creatures with much harsher sentences to send a loud and clear message that our children are valued by us and that if you hurt them, you are going to prison for a VERY long time !

One good piece of news is that He will return to South Africa alone after his wife filed for divorce. I guess he’ll blame the little girl for that too.

Cornelus Bezuidenhout you make me physically sick ! You should do everyone a favour when you get back to South Africa and go play with a Hippo ! How dare you try to blame an innocent little child for your sick perversions!

It never ceases to amaze me how arrogant and deluded these disgusting perverts are, blaming an innocent 6 year old for his heinous actions. Unbelievable!

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DIARY OF A MAD MAN 69 🕴🕴🕴🕴🕴🕴


Before birth, PARENTS MARRY: Mom’s made a commitment to a
life in the Air Force with The Pilot – travel &
Escape from her family – DAD is ready for married life, feel anxious, but hopeful (5)

At birth: Well, that was TOO easy – something’s up, felt anxious (10)

Age 0 -1 Mom’s got her own little boy, at last She’s
Got something all her own – very possessive, felt helpless (10)
Dad’s Got A son – Yea, BUT how will this Affect
Life with my wife, that I really love & want to felt anxious (10)
Control to MAKE HAPPY.
Age 2 Me: My Parents – My Family – 2nd child on the
Way: NO, NO, No – – – Result: Miscarriage (?) Felt Angry
Felt Sad (10)
Felt Fear
1ST Age 4? Loss of CAT – BONFIRE Felt SAD, HELPLESS (10)
Recall Age 5 Sister Announcement;
ection Sister Brought home Felt Anger, jealous, loss (10)
Age 7 Vaccine Shot – Violation Helpless, Anger (10)
Age 8 Step in Dog Doo Hopeless, Anger (10)
Age 8 Forced to Drink Water Helpless, Betrayed (10)
Age 8 Forced to POOL – COINS A – S – H ( )
Age 8 Miss BUS – Coming & Going A – S – H – F ( )
Age 8 Step on NAIL – tetanus A – S – H – F ( )
Age 8 DENTAL VIOLATION A – S – H – F ( )
Age 9 4th grade – different – Bewildered (COLOUR) A – S – H – F ( )
Age 10 Ribs discussion – Malnourished A – S – H – F ( )
Age 9 – 13 DENTAL VISIT – Violation – OILY SKIN
Age 9 – 13 OIL SKIN – Warts – ACNE? Ugly –
Age 9 DAN GARBER – M. M.
Age 8? School: Write in Book Shame + ( )
Age 10 Tree House – Trapped
Age 10 Tree House – BILLY – Overpowered
Age 10 Shame at Grama’s
Age 10 Helena – basement – sick GRAMPA A – S – H – F (10)
Age 10 Shame of OUT OF BED
Age 10 The OBLONG BOX F (10)