DIARY OF A MADMAN 😯

  • Friday . . . Why should you and I be attracted to (do) lucid dreams or (do) OBE s (Out-of-Body-Experiences)? reason(s): to escape this reality; to explore OR (because) it seems like a better or superior position. IF God – Unmanifest Divinity (my term – Oh, I’m so proud!!) dreams, then God pushes into a —— IT dreams, to manifest as manifest divinity – if God IS not awake in the dream, God experiences separateness . . . When “God awakes (Satori or Cosmic Consciousness), it’s quite a thing, BUT, while asleep in ITS dream(s), God will experience it ALL and ALL of it is acceptable experience, somehow. Depression, Psychosis, Bar-hopping, Siddhi powers, Drug-induced hypnosis, hurting, helping, ALL ARE EQUAL. & equally terrible, in a sense, IF it causes God to be caught up, out-of-control, not lucid because the only seeming way to have equanimity is to be TRULY AWAKE, knowing that you are playing with yourself [This is L(ee)la, God’s play] – joyful play (all of it) is fine in a sense, whether it is dying in a torture chamber or becoming King of the World . . . but one (particular) form of play is NOT inherently superior or to be sought after* (* – & is that form of play “sleep acting?” or are all forms of play of real value – maybe so!) You just PLAY, and, when you want to stop, you hopefully can. IF you get caught in any form or circumstance – It is Hell (Yet that too, somehow, is an acceptable thing – But ONLY in the big picture – NOT to the “person” in Hell.

β€œEXPECTATIONS TOO!”Medical Disclaimer. Please use all information regarding “THE CONTENTED HEART,” a.k.a.: “Diary of a Madman,” anyway you wish! IF it is helpful to/for you, comforting or inspiring in anyway, THAT is our INTENTION. We are offering NO MEDICAL ADVICE, and we are NOT doctors, simply “fellow travelers,” also fragile humans, hoping for happiness for everyone, especially YOU! We make no representation and assume no responsibility for the accuracy of what is presented, although we feel we ARE our “brothers’ keepers,” we are all connected and the only sanity we perceive in life is to love and be loved. Shalom, Peace, Namaste & Love to Thee. πŸ™‚

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  • “Diary of a Madman,” a.k.a.: “The Contented Heart!” page 10.
    1. Loving self = finding your joy . . . I’ve never really consistently implemented that process. Now, I am almost so, depressed, suicidal! Q(uestion): (Is there) Any chance to return to accomplish something (i.e.: loving self) that was seemingly impossible to do even in my youth (Maybe I am & have been doing it as a recluse) Direction = love to love self . . . (therefore) must discover self [Q: Who are you? . . . On the most fundamental level . . . I had no basic idea then (for last 60 years) . . . how can I have any idea now? with what seems to be totally inadequate means? * You just need an awareness adjustment, but you can not make the adjustment. KNOW THYSELF – Intellectually I believe fundamentally I am God . . . but, as manifest Divinity, what is truly authentic about me? What am I trul(l)y most magnetized to ? Maybe I don’t need to know and can’t really anyway. IF there is any chance for the unconscious to agree to begin energy delivery again . . . Energy delivery is a model only – unlimited energy may be the reality. Could be where energy begins & then activities are resumed. (A(nswer) #1: It’s the wrong question. Why is there need to do anything when nothing’s wrong) If the same patterns of this life are returned to (the ones that got the imaginary “tap” turned off/diminished in the first place), then the Unconscious knows that I still don’t know &/or love myself truly . . . How true on some level – Q: Is it too late to do anything now – A: Probably, but I really don’t know – Anything’s possible, BUT the path is perilous – What is the ratio of effort required to reward = the
    Medical Disclaimer. Please use all information regarding “THE CONTENTED HEART,” a.k.a.: “Diary of a Madman,” anyway you wish! IF it is helpful to/for you, comforting or inspiring in anyway, THAT is our INTENTION. We are offering NO MEDICAL ADVICE, and we are NOT doctors, simply “fellow travelers,” also fragile humans, hoping for happiness for everyone, especially YOU! We make no representation and assume no responsibility for the accuracy of what is presented, although we feel we ARE our “brothers’ keepers,” we are all connected and the only sanity we perceive in life is to love and be loved. Shalom, Peace, Namaste & Love to Thee. πŸ™‚
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  • FOND DESIRES! πŸ’œ
    “FIRE!” a poem, for May 7th, Moon-DAY – We DON’T need to-talk-about fires; Come-on, Honey, (let’s-talk-’bout) FOND DESIRES! Let’s talk-of those instead, OK? I don’t care ’bout no fires today! Fires-are-not-real, unless in my house; Fires are a dream, and I-am-[just]-a-MOUSE! A mouse can’t put out no fires, except when he p – – s, And brings the populations – To their bloody knees! Fires – they are, Just in my dreams, And p – – – p – – – it-doth-come, In-fluorescent-streams: I will p – – – the fires, p – – – them out, ‘Cause I just wanna – kiss and pout, SO – No-talk-of-fires! HONEY-let-me-know, IF – inside-your-walls-I-can-go. THERE I S FIRE, THE KIND I LIKE, TO STOKE MY FURNACE – AND SPARK THE “MIC!” Come-on, Honey; let fire bans, Be-known-ONLY – to-the-“also rans!” Let’s forget about them fire threats, AND MAKE OUR FIRE – as-The-Sun-sets, And, when it rises, across the way, LET’S MAKE FIRE – THROUGHOUT THE DAY! fin. <3 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wvUQcnfwUUM
  • THE CONTENTED HEART!Β  A die-or-y-or-live-ry!?Β  πŸ™‚ – page 13, a lucky page? DIARY OF A MAD MANπŸ•΅
    (page) 13 I. Alan Watts – the Spiritual Journey as Self – says we are in Kali Yuga! (A rather difficult Hindu division of time) & think(s) “the game” is worth playing! Mom & Dad have The Unconscious objective: “Let’s All Keep the Game going as long as possible” {- & so do I, don’t I?!} – As Long as possible is a reasonable thing UNTIL You (like me) Start to even imagine it’s a game. {Maybe the game’s worth playing, even so; I don’t know.} Then, keeping the game going is really, really a process of doing & any advantage of continuing (except to awaken) may be lost . . . & IF you are not TRULY in SOME process of awakening, you are truly lost (because your health, wealth & most importantly peace of mind are out the window). Thus, you are in the process of unraveling – Unraveling is where I think I’m at. Q(uestion) I(ssue): Is there any evidence to the contrary? . . . I find none. Does trying to explain this to those who are totally (un)consciously keeping the game going (thinking THAT is actually living) of ANY value? I think not. To plant this seed in anyone who has nothing really there to allow the seed to grow is, in some way, (well, it) seems very very cruel. I think, perhaps, the seed has been planted in me . . . Is there any soil I have to sprout the seed (?) IF there is soil, awakening could begin; if no soil, forget it. {Maybe there’s always some soil or capacity.} Just writing down these things which are based on the impressions of others (like Alan Watts) does not mean necessarily that I have soil. It could . . . that would be the only hope I really have left in this life, but I don’t think I have soil . . . but I don’t know. All I can do is WISH I have any soil (or capacity). Is it just wishful thinking to think there is soil . . since I am just writing in circles, I’m afraid it’s just wishful thinking. I am so sad now – is sadness some evidence of soil? I just wish to end this pain & frustration, but, perhaps, if there is even a bit of awakening going on, the evidence might be the very pain & frustration I am . . . https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vH1icLURgbY Medical Disclaimer. Please use all information regarding “THE CONTENTED HEART,” a.k.a.: “Diary of a Madman,” anyway you wish! IF it is helpful to/for you, comforting or inspiring in anyway, THAT is our INTENTION. We are offering NO MEDICAL ADVICE, and we are NOT doctors, simply “fellow travelers,” also fragile humans, hoping for happiness for everyone, especially YOU! We make no representation and assume no responsibility for the accuracy of what is presented, although we feel we ARE our “brothers’ keepers,” we are all connected and the only sanity we perceive in life is to love and be loved. Shalom, Peace, Namaste & Love to Thee. πŸ™‚
  • Mad Mans Diary πŸ•΅
    (15) ANY experience in a conditional realm is suffering, which can lead one to escape by seeking GOD-liners (i.e.: Non-duality), which may be nothing more than being [trapped, dreaming] a rock, dreaming about duality, motivated to return to the realms of suffering, Q E D by dreaming about evolution, from mineral to vegetable to animal, where you finally reach the level of existence where you, again, begin to desire transcendence, or attaining the state of non-duality, A DREAMING ROCK. EVERYTHING IS RELATIVE; everything is awesome, when you’re living in a dream. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=StTqXEQ2l-Y Which is the superior position? A happy idiot or a miserable ____? A short poem about Non-duality (nothing) in 6 lines of poetry . . . I met her in a flower, before the Cup, [did bloom] So we were pressed together, inside our little room, The flower smelled of lotus, & she, of cherry wine, I knew that in a moment, upon her flesh I’d dine, She whispered, that she loved me, and nibbled on my ear, When you’re wrapped inside a lotus, there’s nothing that you fear. A short poem, entitled: DUALITY, Something – It’s a follow-up, but they’re really the same poem – They’re the same, but separate too! When you’re wrapped within a flower, & it’s where you want to be, The lips of your condition, whisper, MON CHERI, Yet brush of breath caresses, touching petals still & Inception, very gentle x 2, awakens every will Yet, what sadness pain will offer? Who can really say? BUT, Our process, born of seeking, it is the sacred way. When suffering meets the lotus x 2 , with a joyful song x 2 Nothing’s lost, & nothing’s gained; things just get alone * 3/18/2015: A [Poem to the Beloved (that’s yours): IF, in the next moment, I just faint, dead away, will you understand? OK?] Medical Disclaimer. Please use all information regarding “THE CONTENTED HEART,” a.k.a.: “Diary of a Madman,” anyway you wish! IF it is helpful to/for you, comforting or inspiring in anyway, THAT is our INTENTION. We are offering NO MEDICAL ADVICE, and we are NOT doctors, simply “fellow travelers,” also fragile humans, hoping for happiness for everyone, especially YOU! We make no representation and assume no responsibility for the accuracy of what is presented, although we feel we ARE our “brothers’ keepers,” we are all connected and the only sanity we perceive in life is to love and be loved. Shalom, Peace, Namaste & Love to Thee. πŸ™‚

  • DIARY OF A MAD MANπŸ•΄πŸ•΄πŸ•΄
    The Contented Heart! page 31 – I am referencing a Catholic Mystic named Bernadette Roberts; she passed away last year, in her mid-80s. I had the opportunity to attend a seminar weekend with her years ago, and she was very nice! πŸ™‚ – She wrote several books, which I would not recommend to most people, … Read more
  • MAD MAN’S DIARY”The Contented Heart!” p. 35 (with a little of p. 36 tossed in as an appetizer!)πŸ•΄πŸ•΄πŸ•΄πŸ•΄πŸ•΄
    HIS PAGE, page 35, is A BLIP, returning for a moment to Bernadette's** Article: (Whether Jesus lived or not is another Question (&) Isn't it irrelevant?*) (35) Logos: Sole-y God . . . i.e.: un-manifest divinity Jesus: distinct, human person Christ: The eternal one-ness of God and MAN: God's own human nature. Bernadette believes Jesus … Read more
  • Diary of a Mad Man! πŸ•΄
    iscussing and considering this stuff can only do so much because the natural way of living is BEYOND ANALYSIS – it has to BE: i.e.: just naturally existent. It can't be contrived, faked, attempted . . . it's just got to be the truly natural "way of doing business." It's really communism, done without any … Read more
  • DIARY OF A MAD MAN ☻☻☻
    BLACK MAGIC – anything seemingly mysterious or miraculous . . . A POEM ENTITLED: "Cause – Effect – Fate – Coincidence & Predestination!" When I sit, my nose runs. Does it run because I sit? // IF, whenever I sit, it starts to run, SURELY it is so!! BUT – in my fairy tale are … Read more
  • DIARY OF A MAD MAN,Abuse,Anxiety,BROKEN SOUL,πŸ•΄πŸ•΄πŸ•΄πŸ•΄
    Processing anything even more impossible. Why? How? Help! Stop! Can't – Shouldn't / sooner or later ALL has to be faced) – Inevitable – Scream – Sad. Cry – DO SOMETHING!" The American MANTRA . . . When do YOU finally stop THIS? When results appear over time to be destructive or counter-productive? IF you … Read more
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