As I’m crying I am hurting inside
Been cut so deep, I feel every time I am breathing, I’m merely beyond betrayed

Slice me with my eye,

Not even ice can bring the pain a sudden stop

I am crying shaking my Cobb web’s.

It shakes my head when I’m looking like that.

I am venting for a way out ringing my head

Looking like I was splashed more than blades stabbing me obsessed with the hurt I went through

Cause it’s looking like a dead weight hasn’t been lifted yet

Fill it up with each pattern of crap
Hard to cover up those patterns with cracks

Deadly habits can hurt when we go look there opposite section

My perception of those who sight of a woman who’s always battling, have been in this battle of teardrops

For many years

Can’t test a river when a well is dry
Cause I’m dry in space.

Laces can’t hang my mind already it wants to have a soft place cause my mind is falling from grace.

Nobody ever knows why I shed tears

Sorrow is a sweet lament

Tomorrow no more tears

Forever DONE😌

CONQUERING; something of GRACE🙄🙄

“THEY TRY!” a poem. a.k.a.: “Guys ARE Good For Something!” June 2, 2018 Saturday.

Women TRY, but – They(can)-”hate”-their-bodies, and (always)


I think, PERHAPS, that-is-the-reason- ”God”-made-man;


For men ‘appreciate-”packages”-quite-a-lot,

Actually! (pause) Men-are-crazy- And-wars-are-fought,


A thing, of course, with Human-Hearts!

LOVE and PASSION and STUFF like that,

‘Bout: Ladies’ Undies, (and) – THE-EYE-OF-THE-CAT!

Yea, guys-might-be-crazy, ‘Bout T’s & a –.



fin. <3



* – Cherry chocolate cheesecake with dates & nuts is my favorite! :)

CONQUERING; something of GRACE🕴🕴🕴

(28) Nor is it about going out & CONQUERING; something of GRACE must impact the situation & it is beyond all the separate speakers & me as a separate intermediary. Alan Watts talked about a “sudden” event – (an) unexpected, perhaps, spontaneous awakening. This writing is: Another Distraction (true) An attempt to give respect to ALL positions (true) ANOTHER last ditch effort (true) An attempt to UNDERSTAND (true) An interesting exercise (true) (definitely NOT pure as a JOYFUL energy use) A Frustration (but – is it anything like Swami Rama (when it was after) 17 yrs. of meditation before his Master (gave him) a Shaktipat Swat) – It (the diary) appears such (to be such) a surface scratch as to not justify continuance. Of course, wherever I AM in any process (even if it appears a futile downward spiral) there are those elements shouting, “Yea, but it’s something . . . keep trying!” NOW, my right hand ( like – – – ) is swelling up & hurting. It seems like this diary would only have some relative value IF other aspects of my life were somewhat in place – Obviously, they are not & Something in J just keeps holding on . . . presently, with a hurting hand! * Everyone needs BELIEF IN SOMETHING to hold (it) together or the fabric of their (apparent) reality (dissolves!) like: (1) Sun Worship or (2) Ancestor Worship or (3) Christianity or (4) Jungian Psychology or (5) The idea of Cosmic Consciousness or (6) the belief that the right food or drugs can make your life all better or (7) (the) Belief that the right food or Drugs Can Destroy Your Life as You Know It or (8) The belief in life after Death or (9) A Belief that, as a species, we are entering a new dimension of existence or (10) A Belief in Being Born, Aging & Dying or (11) A Belief that we’re born into a family & they pass their beliefs onto us or (12) The belief that beliefs can alter our perceived reality (Quantum Mechanics + String Theory = Satisfaction!!) or (13) The belief that beliefs are infectious . . . PERHAPS ALL THESE CAN & DO MANIFEST https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nrIPxlFzDi0. . .

and dealing with all the grass that grows! / A hundred zillion strands, I- suppose, / Can’t-I-stop this silly-mess-a-while,/ and simply go some place to smile? / For there’s no peace, when all these things, / Are (echoing); space-time, it brings, / ME to a place, where I can rest, / Have peace . . . and, maybe, build a nest . . . <3

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Love’s Pleasure
Fallen so greatly has modern man become
Blindly toward the ephemeral, we see him run

Today too often “love” is over before it has begun
Yet wisdom teaches that the female heart must be won

Only by that man who sees in her his salvation
Who sees in every strand of her hair a Divine Perfection

Such that his spirit awakens in each lingering kiss
His adoration of her entire body not one part to miss

All wisdom in every touch from her head to her feet
Upon such proof, he shall be worthy to take his seat

A Kingly throne now built upon Heaven’s true treasure

In worshiping his queen, is found love’s true pleasure


Strangers No More

With the stimulation of your thoughts your poetry of what is loving and beautiful flows to my soul. I am enriched by the flavor of your love. Strangers no more for it has connected to what is beautiful within us both.
Let the heavenly host bare witness to this rejuvenated energy that allows the heavens not only accept but expand to a creation that will give birth to what is pleasing in the sight of the Most High.