(page) 13 I. Alan Watts – the Spiritual Journey as Self – says we are in Kali Yuga! (A rather difficult Hindu division of time) & think(s) “the game” is worth playing! Mom & Dad have The Unconscious objective: “Let’s All Keep the Game going as long as possible” {- & so do I, don’t I?!} – As Long as possible is a reasonable thing UNTIL You (like me) Start to even imagine it’s a game. {Maybe the game’s worth playing, even so; I don’t know.} Then, keeping the game going is really, really a process of doing & any advantage of continuing (except to awaken) may be lost . . . & IF you are not TRULY in SOME process of awakening, you are truly lost (because your health, wealth & most importantly peace of mind are out the window). Thus, you are in the process of unraveling – Unraveling is where I think I’m at. Q(uestion) I(ssue): Is there any evidence to the contrary? . . . I find none. Does trying to explain this to those who are totally (un)consciously keeping the game going (thinking THAT is actually living) of ANY value? I think not. To plant this seed in anyone who has nothing really there to allow the seed to grow is, in some way, (well, it) seems very very cruel. I think, perhaps, the seed has been planted in me . . . Is there any soil I have to sprout the seed (?) IF there is soil, awakening could begin; if no soil, forget it. {Maybe there’s always some soil or capacity.} Just writing down these things which are based on the impressions of others (like Alan Watts) does not mean necessarily that I have soil. It could . . . that would be the only hope I really have left in this life, but I don’t think I have soil . . . but I don’t know. All I can do is WISH I have any soil (or capacity). Is it just wishful thinking to think there is soil . . since I am just writing in circles, I’m afraid it’s just wishful thinking. I am so sad now – is sadness some evidence of soil? I just wish to end this pain & frustration, but, perhaps, if there is even a bit of awakening going on, the evidence might be the very pain & frustration I am . . .

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