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[I might call this page: “PERSONAS, or personalities you become! Can’t live with ’em; can’t live without ’em!!”] (1) This is ONLY a model – what’s REALLY going (on) is anyone’s guess. These suggestions I would accept only if ? is not authenticated with real self love and understanding – an authentic life * – which I really haven’t – – – lived to any extent. [(?) = IT, the energy you are given to live with, YOUR ENERGY RESERVOIR, as to speak, IF there is such a thing at all . . . even IT has to be imagined, so how valid really is IT?] ENERGY FOR LIFE – – – a little ? PERSONAS (LAYERS OF IDEAS) ALL are true AND false – Any are truly “false” personas if you buy into the idea that any are actually true – they’re all constructs – i.e.:False Idols = buying into them as genuine anything(s) (like this) IS idolatry – probably not the best thing to get caught up in: A God(?) A Nice Guy. S – – – Guy Sick Bipolar Guy Lawyer Introvert Singer Feeling Type – These are reinforced/infused by Parents, ex-wife, Mahikari,** Education System, Society (others) = infusions – These are all really me, accepting reinforcement and suggestion. But NONE of these ARE authentic – just things I was programmed to develop and I accepted as “default tools,” so to speak. Personas take ALL available energy in some manic way; they take most all the energy from ? – At various points, some unconscious self (WHICH IS THE REAL SELF TOO) cuts off AVAILABLE energy almost totally = depression/psychosis / Personas are disrespected by (The) self because of entire process. How (must a person be) to gracefully disengage from personas to return to ? – to try to learn to love self . . . (?) ** – Sukyo Mahikari, a “new world,” Japanese religious movement, with, perhaps, a million adherents, based on peoples’ lives being governed by a Supreme Being, with the head of this organization being the sole mediator between that God, named SU, for short, and all inhabitants of third dimensional realities, yet, with still a lot of control of individuals by evil, “attaching” spirits, which can be released MAINLY by “a spiritual awakening” provided by infusing the “possessed person” and the entities involved with Divine Light, channeled through the members, who are given this POWER, thanks to the blessing of the organizational head ; it is considered monotheistic, pantheistic, polytheistic, and all these concepts are fused with a heavy emphasis on The Afterlife, “spiritual” growth and development, Divine Providence and “legitimate” miracles happening mainly within the confines of the organization. As far as this “Silly Me” is concerned (and I was a ferment member for about 15 years), it is a wonderful “model” for what those that study these things call a “cult!” {PLEASE NOTE HERE: I HAVE NO PARTICULAR RELIANCE ON THE INFORMATION YOU, GENTLE READER(S), A P P E A R TO BE READING, AND (I CERTAINLY DO NOT SUGGEST ANYONE SHOULD RELY ON IT FOR ANYTHING EXCEPT FOR “ENTERTAINMENT PURPOSES!!”) I WOULD GO SO FAR HERE AS TO SAY: “THIS STUFF IS ALL CRAP,” SINCE IT IS REALLY JUST TRYING TO EXPLAIN THAT WHICH, IN MY MISERABLE OPINION, IS UNEXPLAINABLE! I WOULD SUGGEST, IF YOU HAVE ANY INTEREST IN ANY OF THIS “STUFF,” THAT YOU JUST GO TO: AND READ THE POETRY THAT IS THERE – WHICH, I THINK, SIMPLY SAYS THAT THERE ARE NO TRUTHS, INCLUDING THIS STATEMENT THAT “THERE ARE NO TRUTHS(!),” NOBODY AND NOTHING “KNOWS” WHAT IS GOING ON, THERE APPEARS TO BE SOMETHING CALLED “LOVE,” WHICH IS “NICE,” BUT, LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE, IS P R O B A B L Y UNDEPENDABLE, WHATEVER THAT MEANS, B U T – IT’S ALL WE GOT. SO – H E R E ‘ S T O L O V E ! !} 🙂 ❤

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